First off, I want to thank Premama Wellness for the opportunity to contribute a part of my infertility story on their platform. I am beyond excited and hope that my journey will encourage and inspire the reader.
Describe yourself in 3-5 words.
Loyal, Passionate, Encourager, Hopeful, Genuine
When did you know you were ready to start your motherhood journey?
Children were not on our radar the first year of our marriage. We wanted to freely enjoy being newlyweds and build our finances before bringing children into the world. By our second year of marriage, we got baby fever and actively started trying. We tried and tried, but not once did we have a positive pregnancy or ovulation test. By year three, we went to a fertility specialist, and they could never track my ovulation. Unfortunately, as a result, I was diagnosed with PCOS and unexplained infertility. To jumpstart my fertility treatment, I started taking Provera, Letrozole, and other fertility medications. None of it helped. Simply put, the timing was off, and we can see that now. Our prior experience with fertility treatment has not turned us away from the idea, but we would have to think about it. At this time, we are still holding on to hope while doing our part. We will see their beautiful faces soon.
Where did you find Premama Wellness in your journey?
I recently found out about Premama within the last year. I noticed the brand on Instagram one day, and a friend sent it to me too. The Fertility Support For Her 'Conceive' supplement stuck out to me. I did not know much about Myo-inositol, so I wanted to research it before trying it out. There are many supplements nowadays, and I'm not particularly eager to jump on the bandwagon without knowing what I'm getting myself in. For my health and the health of our future children, I have been sticking to more natural supplements with an ingredient list that I can actually read. I'm so glad I found Premama because it has become a staple in my vitamin/supplement routine. It is an excellent product for PCOS and fertility. I may not feel a drastic change yet, but I know that it is working internally.
What is your current state of mind?
My current state of mind is contentment. Do I desire children? Of course. However, I know that when it is the right time, and everything is in alignment, our children will come forth. We cannot make it happen. Trust me; we have already tried that. We have come to the place where we understand and rest in the fact that we are not in control. We will continue to enjoy every moment we have with one another as husband and wife, [childless] and trust the process. When our miracle children come, they will be a joyful bonus.
If your journey were a song, what song would it be?
Wow, I can think of so many songs that have carried us through this process. A song that currently sticks out is "Believe" by Cece Winans. The whole song is powerful, but my favorite part is the chorus. It states, "Move the immovable. Break the unbreakable. God, we believe. God, we believe for it. From the impossible. We'll see a miracle. God, we believe. God, we believe for it." My husband and I have been to fertility clinics, received unfortunate medical reports, and seen various negative pregnancy and ovulation tests. However, this song speaks profoundly to where we are in our journey. It's going to take a miracle.
Who is a woman who inspires you?
I am inspired by all of the women who fearlessly walk or have walked out their journey to motherhood. We are warriors who have what it takes to conquer this mountain of infertility. We are beating it not only for us but also for our children. In addition, we'll be able to share hope with the next woman who is battling this. Two women stick out as SheRos to me, and that is Wanda Mulzac and Marshawn Daniels. It's so amazing to witness how they both went through dark moments of infertility but received double and triple for their trouble. Wanda has twins, and Marshawn has triplets. While walking through their process of becoming a mom, they also motivated soon-to-be mamas like me. What an inspiration!
Who or what has helped you the most on your journey?
My faith in God has helped me in this journey. If I didn't hold on to the hope that God gives, I'm not sure where I would be mentally and emotionally as a woman. This journey is an emotional rollercoaster that seems like it will never end. But I am so grateful that I have someone to run to that understands my pain and knows how to comfort me as no one else can. In addition, our family, friends, and church family have been a source of encouragement also. We're so blessed :)
What would you say to others who find themselves on a journey similar to yours?
Enjoy this time with your spouse and continue to strengthen that bond because when your children come, they will be one of the main focuses. I would also say to take time to heal from any past trauma or experiences so that your children can experience freedom in areas you may have struggled in. You want to be a healed and whole parent so that you know how to raise whole children. Furthermore, practice self-care often for your mental, emotional, spiritual, and physical wellbeing. If need be, see a therapist so that you can adequately express and process your emotions. Never give up hope, and don't be too hard on yourself. You are not alone.
What has the journey taught you, and what keeps you going?
This journey has taught me patience, perseverance, and greater faith. But, what keeps me going is knowing that one day I will kiss and hold my miracle children in my arms.